gyanjyoti

Lately why am I being so raucous with my friends, this I clearly don't know. My raunchy thoughts form a major part of me. Is it me getting ravenous for sensual pleasures obstructing my development? this also I don't know . Whom I used to think as my close friends now seem as my biggest enemies. What the heck happened to me?? They rebuke me for my wrong habits yet I own a grudge against them. No doubt I have sown a plethora of reconcile feelings for them. Why am I so recluse now?? If proper reckoning is done, then certainly the verdict would be my recalcitrant attitude and my blistering ego. ALAS... I already knew the reason, then also I am unwilling to change. I need to recapitulate my manners and behavioural patterns. Surely it’s no less severe than recidivism. This burden is razing me to the ground. If only someone could give me a little rebate, I would be happy......

o krsna!!! why do I remember you only when I am in dire need of you. Have I gotten so selfish????????

-anubvm